A letter to my daughter

 

Dear Baby,

My favorite time with you so far is around midnight-one o’clock. I’m already in bed, Tim is asleep, the puppies have settled down, and the world is quiet. The only person that seems to be awake is you.

I’ll be laying there just on the precipice of a dream and you’ll start bouncing away inside of me. It’s amusing because you rarely ever move during the day. I just think it’s because you like the rocking movement caused by all of my running around in the day. When things finally settle down and I become still, you decide that it’s time to wake up and say hello.

I don’t mind. Even if it’s been the longest day of my life, your little kicks still make me smile :) You’re the most active then and it’s like you’re giving me a preview of what life with you is going to be like. Unexpected. Unpredictable, but always ever so exciting. I almost don’t want you to come out. I don’t want to share those moments with anyone. I want it to always be you and me like that. At the same time, I can’t wait to see you!

Last night was the first time I’ve felt you get the hiccups. It wasn’t for very long, but I’m sure that’s what it was. I can almost imagine what your pretty little face looked like the when you got them!That’s something we’ll always share, you and me. Your first hiccup!

Love,

Your mommy

His girls can swim!

Turns out we got lucky in our sex selection journey. After months of reading how to make a girl/boy books (don't judge me!) we had finally found ourselves ready to start trying last June. Each month I followed the "steps" to successfully make a girl baby. My generation is called the "Microwave" generation, we want what we want and we want it NOW! We think we don't have time to wait or time to save, which is one of the reasons my generation is mostly poor and unsuccessful. But that's another blog! Anyway, after 2 months of unsuccessful pregnancy attempts I was growing impatient.
Go figure.
So the next month, August, I was like screw it. I checked to know when I was ovulating and "practiced" baby making with Tim everyday that week, the 3 leading up to ovulation, the day of, and the 3 after ovulation. Lets say it was a real good week for him! Lol!
To successfully make a girl, apparently you have to only "practice" the few days prior to ovulation but stop 1-2 days before actual ovulation. See girly sperm swim slow but live long and male spermy swim fast but die quick so it would make sense that after 1-2 days only the girly sperms are left ready to pounce when my egg drops.

But, my impatient self got the better of me, I had baby fever, and I just wanted to get pregnant! I thought, everybody else just does it and God will give me what He will either way, so we went at it the old fashioned way and low and behold...HIS GIRLS CAN SWIM!!!

Oh my God I'm having a...!!!

Well I had my ultrasound follow up the other day. I went in to the appointment thinking, this is IT! THIS is the day I will find out the sex of my baby. (I know there are you moms out there who say, "its the last real surprise in life to wait until Baby is born". Great for you! But I'm just not that mom!) As you all know, the last ultrasound let me and all of you down when my little "problem child" would not get into a position to see its little parts, let alone a good position to get all the measurements the tech needed to document for my midwife. So this time around, at 22 weeks, I felt so confident, thinking, at this point 1.the baby is much bigger 2.i feel it move around ALL the time now and 3.I've been seeing the chiropractor who specializes in pregnancy and turning breach babies and I've doing all the recommended inversions so there's no way we won't find out!
Wrong!
Never underestimate the power of an unborn child!!! I hike my ass up on that table and she starts prodding around with her wand and low and behold, my baby hasn't moved out of the same spot from 4 weeks ago! Pardon my not so "mommy like" language but, WTF!?!?
The tech is all "I remember this baby, the hardest baby I've ever had". I'm all "this baby is already grounded from day one if it doesn't show its parts today!" I'm rolling over from side to side, sitting up, laying back down, ANYTHING to get this child to move around.
So I'm already feeling disappointed, again, that we will have to wait and I won't be able to shop! Until, just before the tech is going to give up, the baby gives us a little view of its hiny and Tim goes, "I think I just saw a hamburger!" and the tech says "I'm pretty sure that's what I see to, but I don't like to call it unless I'm 150% sure" then she pauses the picture and we all sit there staring at my baby's hiny...
theres definitely no twig and berries there. And the tech says she won't say what she sees, but she'll tell me what she doesn't see and that's a hot dog! So...
ITS A GIRL!!!!